Wait - The ugly four-letter word!

There is nothing like waiting. Waiting makes us anxious, worried, and filled with questions. We always hear it's worth the wait, don't we? But, it's so hard to wait, especially when you are waiting for a dream or a goal to finally happen. Right now I'm working on one of those goals and man it's a lot of hard work, a lot of thinking, and questions and wondering what on earth am I doing. But I know in the end it will be worth it. I need to embrace the tension that I am in right now because even though I know it's scary it will be worth it once I hold the final product in my hand. Oh, I can't wait.

I know a lot about waiting!! You know in high school when all your girlfriends are telling you about their first kisses, dates, and all that fun stuff well that never happened for me in high school. Then in college, I went on a few blind dates, but nothing ever happened there. It wasn't until I was twenty-nine years old that I finally got to know what it was like to have a first kiss. Embarrassing right? HECK YA!!! Let me tell you I hated the waiting. It was awful! Watching your friends get married and have kiddos, and you still haven't even had a first kiss. I felt like I was missing something all the time. Even though I tried to embrace my singleness by going on trips and volunteering, the waiting and wondering if God really had a guy out there for me was tiresome. I do know that in the waiting I got to know a lot about myself and I did have a lot of fun. Looking back I wish I could have had the confidence I have now in my early twenties because I would have done my single life better. I would have taken more chances and really got out of my comfort zone. But, God knew I had to go through everything I did in my twenties to get me to the second man I ever kissed on my thirtieth birthday. That man ended up being the man of my dreams! It was definitely worth waiting for! I guess what I am saying life is full of waiting and it's what we do during that time that will define us.

I'm not a fan of the work it takes in the waiting. I just want it done. But, if life just handed us things, that would get us nowhere. It's in the hard work that gets us where we need to be. We need to fight to stay on focus. We need to let go of the fear, distractions, and insecurities and just go for it! I know for me lately I've been distracted. I've been so focused on what I can't do and what I see everyone else doing that I lose my focus. I need to stay on my own track and know that God is helping me figure out this crazy goal of mine. Do you have any crazy goals? Tell someone! I know I made the mistake and told someone about my goal and here I am going for it! We need to disrupt our distractions and insecurities and follow our dreams. Life is so full of disruptions. How we handle them makes us stronger! We are strong and amazing women. God gave us all talents that come in so many different ways. He knew we would need all of these talents to complete his mission.

We just finished watching The Star at church tonight and I keep thinking of Mary. Can you imagine being so young and being told you were going to be carrying the one who will rescue us all, Jesus? Can you imagine the nine months of waiting and questioning God about what on earth he was doing? But she said yes and that right there is worth celebrating!!!!!

(Take a moment here and have a dance party)

Saying yes to God is hard sometimes, but trusting in Him, makes it worth it. Mary said yes to God and she got to hold baby Jesus in her arms. Can you even imagine? I get teary-eyed just thinking of what that must have been like. Is there something God wants you to say yes to? Pray about it. Ask friends to pray for you. With God by your side you will do amazing things. I pray as we go into the weekend that we are in awe of everything this season holds.

I am taking a social media break until the beginning of the new year except to post these blogs and I'm excited about it. Today was just day one and already removing the distraction has proved that I definitely needed it.

Always Smile,

Michelle